At the Gates of Repentance

17 January 10

Well, apparently we are there again. Zaccheus Sunday a.k.a. The gates of Repentance a.k.a. the pre-beginnings of Lent.

I did not figure it would come up so quick. Talk about totally unprepared.

Welcome (Back) to the Dark Side

14 January 10

Well. After a short stint in insanity. I have returned to the land of cookies and normality. I am yet again a history major. I dropped that other retarded class. Saved some money. Did a little dance and then poured some milk.

Other than that, just crazy life being crazy, but tonight is choir so all is getting back to normal. Yay!

More tomorrow. About to get off at Thomas and Scottsdale and walk the 4 blocks to work. Enjoy!

Life is A Struggle

13 January 10

If it wasn’t a struggle, what would be the point in the end?

True Colors

12 January 10

Ok, so I cheated on the title. I am on the bus yet again, at the Sycamore and Main station waiting for the “ahead of schedule” bus to get me to work.

We had our monthly staff meeting last night. It was, overall, a good meeting. I took a lot of notes LOL. Well, we were talking about the new school and the potential staffing needs and the Directress made the statement that we will only have one Intern position next year. Well, that’s all well and good, except that’s my position title and I donmt see a way for that to change at this point. I won’t have my BA by next year and I am not in training (yet) so I am sorta freaked out.

I wrote the directress last night and sort of laid it on the line. Asked what I could do to help my standings, suggested an afterschool music program to sort of “sell myself” in the new school next year. I am waiting for her to get back to me and see what she says. Glory to God in All Things!

Techno Toddler

9 January 10

Just a short post tonight. I am amazed at my daughter. 2 years old and somehow she has managed to learn how to use my touch screen phone better than she should. LOL!

She sat on the bed tonight at bed time watching YouTube videos, changing musical tracks on my MP3 player, trying to make calls, all from my phone!

I love my little gremlin, but it is amazing how this little Sponge of mine is sucking up information and concepts faster than I ever imagined. Wow. I think I have a video of her messing with my phone on my digital camera, I’ll have to upload it and add it here.

My 7 Years (And Still Counting) War

7 January 10

Well. As I sit here on this bus, headed into work I am reminded of where I was 7 years ago today. My three year search ended and I found my eternal home. I write these words as if this journey was easy, or as if the transition was seamless. Transition? As if it was anywhere near over..

Baptism and Holy Illumination are only the beginning. Its after this that the war begins and does not end until we do. The story of the journey I have made was on an older blog in 2 posts. I still have it, but do not know if it is worth moving over. I am not the same person I was then. Not even close and not in a good way.

I almost gave up. I almost walked away, but what would that have gained me? “Where would we go? For Thou hast the words of eternal life.” I think back at that time and see who I was and who I wouls want to be again, and I know the work in store for me, but it is totally worth it unto salvation.

I look back on this day. Even though there are things I know now that I did not know then, but the journey to get to this point has taught me so much more and I have to believe that that was the essential purpose. I now have to take these things I have learned and apply them in real and concrete ways to life and to the struggles I am up against.

Lord Jesus Christ. Son of God, Have mercy on me the sinner.

Helplessness in Christ

6 January 10

About our helplessness without Christ the Lord

Because without me youcan do nothing” (St. John 15:5).

Our Lord did not have the habit of speaking in terms of exaggeration. No words in this world are weighed more than His words. When He says that we can do nothing without Him, then that must be taken and understood literally. Here, He speaks of good and not of evil. We can do no type of good work without Christ, aside from Christ and contrary to Christ. He is the proprietor, the giver and the inspirer for all good. No type of good stands outside Him, likewise no type of evil is contained in Him. Our Lord said, ” I am the Vine, you are the branches” (St. John 15:5). What can the branches do without the vine? Can they grow and bring forth fruit? No, they can do nothing but become firewood.

Man can think as hard as he wants, but he cannot conceive of one truthful good which is not in Christ and which does not stem from Christ. If someone were to say that he does good and humane works outside of Christ, you know that those, his works, are spoiled to the core and are corroded, be it from vanity or be it from hidden selfishness. Man, without Christ, is the same as branches without the vine. He Himself told us this. The vine is hidden and unseen, but the branches are seen. Nevertheless, the grapes on the branch and the branch itself depends on the vine. The vine of all-encompassing good grows from the heart of God the Father and is watered by the sweetness of the Holy Spirit. O Triune Lord God, have mercy on us and save us!