It’s funny when you wonder something for a long time and you fear asking the questions because of the answers your will receive. If one chooses to live in fear when all that is required is faith and obedience.
When one realizes that these to gifts are at their disposal, it truly makes the more difficult decisions in life so much easier.
I realise that some things in life are given to us for our benefit. The same can be said of the things in life that God chooses to not grace us with. I received one of these today. It was not really a shock, but at the same time it was a harsh reality of who I am and what I am called to.
I must continue to persevere in my salvation without worrying about this unattainable aspect of my life. It does not defined me. I am more than this and in a sense i have been called to greater things.
When I started this journey it was because I was seeking something greater than myself. I was granted that grace and that must be sufficient for me. I am happy with this decision. It was feeding to know that I was not shackled with not knowing and now that I know I can focus on living with the grace I have been granted and not worry about anything else.
Glory to God for all things!