Writing vs. Writing

25 April 13

Many times over the years I have wondered if I could pull it off. I have let the idea slide around in my head, place it gently in the corners of my mind until a later time when I revisit the idea and then give it a break for a while. I wonder if there is a need, and there is a part of me that feels like, in some little way, I could place something in the void, not to fill it per se, but to add something of content to the seeming emptiness.

Tonight was another of those nights where I stopped and, yet again, questioned my merit, my ability, my worthiness. I wonder if my pride is what pushes me forward, or if this feeling I would just as soon call vanity, is an actual ability to do anything of value.

I guess only time will tell. Well, that and a chat with my spiritual father, Dear July, I am waiting for you as patiently as I can. Thanks. Me

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Lent 2013: Coming to a Close

24 April 13

Well, it looks like there is a Light at the end of the tunnel. It seems to me that this year has been an exceptionally rough Fast. We attempted to follow through on the Fast this year and it was rather difficult. The Feast of the Annunciation (March 25th) as well as Palm Sunday (April 28th) were the two Fish Days during the Fast and these days taught me something.

I LIKE FISH.

We went to Rula Bula, an Irish pub, for the Feast of the Annunciation this year, and the food, as well as the fellowship was amazing. A small group of us attended Vespers the evening of the 24th, and because sunset had occurred by the end of the service it was, liturgically, the next day, so we all went to dinner together. We plan on doing the same thing this coming Saturday for the Feast of Palm Sunday.

Two weeks ago we met our new priest, Father Andre. He and his family came to visit us for the weekend and served a few services with us. Friday night we had an Akathist to the Theotokos, and he served that with us. There is so much that I could say about him and our time with him, but much of it is personal, and I do not want thoughts of this nature floating on the internet, even though they may be very good and positive, they are very special to me. He will be joining us officially in July after he graduates Seminary and takes some well deserved and needed rest during the month of June. It will be a great blessing to have a priest with us full-time serving and tending for the spiritual needs of the parish,

I finish the current set of coursework next week. Yes, for those of you playing the home game that IS Holy Week and with the current docket of 13 services from Holy Monday until Pascha this is going to be one heck of a week, but worth it in the end. I then begin the next trio of classes that run another 8 weeks. With each 8 weeks I am that much closer to me degree.

I signed off of Facebook on Forgiveness Sunday (March 17), and although it was a bit difficult the first week, it has become easier over time. I know that SHOULD have given me loads of time to write here, but with everything else going on I have cut down on internet a bit all around which has been good for me overall. I have debated leaving Facebook altogether, but I am not sure if I will do that either. It is interesting how invested we become with social media. I have photos and links to thinks, notes I have written and those that have been shared with me, and I do not want to get rid of those completely, so we will see what the final result is.

Well, here we go into the last stretch of Lent.

Behold, the Bridegroom cometh at midnight, and blessed is that servant whom He shall find watching; but unworthy is he whom He shall find heedless. Beware, therefore, O my soul, lest thou be weighed down with sleep; lest thou be given up to death, and be shut out from the kingdom. But rouse thyself and cry: Holy, Holy, Holy art Thou, O God, through the Theotokos have mercy on us.